1 00:00:01,369 --> 00:00:02,503 [ Footsteps ] 2 00:00:02,536 --> 00:00:05,273 [ Siren wailing in distance ] 3 00:00:05,306 --> 00:00:07,741 [ Elevator bell dings ] 4 00:00:07,775 --> 00:00:09,543 [ Footsteps, doors clatter ] 5 00:00:09,577 --> 00:00:12,113 [ Woman speaking indistinctly on P.A. ] 6 00:00:14,215 --> 00:00:17,485 Will: Are you sure you're ready for this? 7 00:00:17,518 --> 00:00:20,488 Well, I'd quit this place if I could, 8 00:00:20,521 --> 00:00:23,724 but I can't. 9 00:00:23,757 --> 00:00:27,461 So if being an ER doctor is no longer an option for me, 10 00:00:27,495 --> 00:00:30,298 I'll -- I'll take being a hospital chaplain. 11 00:00:31,499 --> 00:00:33,434 I appreciate the opportunity. 12 00:00:36,137 --> 00:00:37,705 The new meds don't work, huh? 13 00:00:41,309 --> 00:00:42,843 Have you given any more thought to surgery? 14 00:00:42,876 --> 00:00:44,612 Deep Brain Stimulation? Mm-hmm. 15 00:00:44,645 --> 00:00:47,381 Yes, yes, I've given it a lot of thought. 16 00:00:47,415 --> 00:00:49,517 Especially the risks. 17 00:00:49,550 --> 00:00:52,520 I-I could lose my memory. I could lose my life. 18 00:00:52,553 --> 00:00:55,456 Or it could be life-changing, Rollie. 19 00:00:55,489 --> 00:00:57,425 Fields says you're a good candidate for it. 20 00:00:57,458 --> 00:00:58,826 But you may not be for much longer. 21 00:00:58,859 --> 00:01:00,661 Yes, I know. I know. 22 00:01:00,694 --> 00:01:02,830 [ Cellphone vibrates ] I really think you should... 23 00:01:02,863 --> 00:01:05,599 reconsider this because it... 24 00:01:05,633 --> 00:01:08,436 Looks like we got a big one coming in. 25 00:01:08,469 --> 00:01:09,870 Apartment fire. 26 00:01:09,903 --> 00:01:12,540 Listen, I heard what you said, Dr. Campbell. 27 00:01:12,573 --> 00:01:14,542 It's just that I've made my decision. 28 00:01:14,575 --> 00:01:16,444 All right. 29 00:01:16,477 --> 00:01:18,479 Well, there's rules for your new position. 30 00:01:18,512 --> 00:01:20,581 Yes. You can provide counsel or comfort 31 00:01:20,614 --> 00:01:22,516 to those who request it, but you cannot -- 32 00:01:22,550 --> 00:01:24,685 [ Laughs ] I can't tend to patients. 33 00:01:24,718 --> 00:01:27,121 And no doctoring. Understood. 34 00:01:29,190 --> 00:01:32,193 [ Woman speaking indistinctly on P.A. ] 35 00:01:34,528 --> 00:01:36,497 First ambulance on the ramp in two minutes. 36 00:01:36,530 --> 00:01:37,465 Okay, thanks. 37 00:01:37,498 --> 00:01:38,499 Hey, guys, 30 to 40 patients on their way in. 38 00:01:38,532 --> 00:01:41,569 Ethan: Expect smoke inhalation, burns, trauma. 39 00:01:41,602 --> 00:01:43,471 Second-years, what are the burn victim pearls? 40 00:01:43,504 --> 00:01:45,639 Intubate early. 41 00:01:45,673 --> 00:01:46,774 For any signs of airway burns. 42 00:01:46,807 --> 00:01:48,276 And expect a fluid deficit. 43 00:01:48,309 --> 00:01:49,577 Hey, Rollie. Good to see you. 44 00:01:49,610 --> 00:01:51,712 -Good to see you, too, Leanne. -Dr. Guthrie. 45 00:01:51,745 --> 00:01:54,315 No, no. It's just Rollie now, young squire. 46 00:01:54,348 --> 00:01:55,649 Oh, come on. You're still a doctor. 47 00:01:55,683 --> 00:01:57,785 It's better that I don't confuse the patients. 48 00:01:57,818 --> 00:01:59,787 I'm just here to support now. 49 00:01:59,820 --> 00:02:01,355 I'm glad you are. 50 00:02:01,389 --> 00:02:03,524 Leighton, Pineda, Savetti, get out there now. 51 00:02:03,557 --> 00:02:05,659 There will be distraught families coming in. 52 00:02:05,693 --> 00:02:07,295 Yeah, I'll be there. 53 00:02:09,863 --> 00:02:11,865 -What do you got? -55-year-old male. 54 00:02:11,899 --> 00:02:13,501 Smoke inhalation and shortness of breath. 55 00:02:13,534 --> 00:02:15,403 Complains of 10 out of 10 chest pain. 56 00:02:15,436 --> 00:02:17,505 Lola? Lola? 57 00:02:17,538 --> 00:02:19,440 -His daughter. -Lola! 58 00:02:19,473 --> 00:02:21,175 Lost her balance getting him out the window onto the ladder. 59 00:02:21,209 --> 00:02:22,910 -Fell two stories. -She ride in with you? 60 00:02:22,943 --> 00:02:24,812 -No. Another rig. -What do you got? 61 00:02:24,845 --> 00:02:26,447 28-year-old female. 62 00:02:26,480 --> 00:02:27,648 Second degree burns to the chest and neck. 63 00:02:27,681 --> 00:02:29,517 Diffuse wheezes from smoke inhalation. 64 00:02:29,550 --> 00:02:31,352 -Okay, why is she restrained? -[ Muffled screams ] 65 00:02:31,385 --> 00:02:33,521 Acute agitation, totally incoherent. 66 00:02:33,554 --> 00:02:37,525 I suspect altered mental status secondary to hypoxia. 67 00:02:37,558 --> 00:02:40,628 [ Coughing ] My daughter. She saved me. 68 00:02:40,661 --> 00:02:41,729 Let's get him to center stage. 69 00:02:41,762 --> 00:02:44,532 [ Shouting in Arabic ] 70 00:02:44,565 --> 00:02:45,733 That's Arabic. 71 00:02:45,766 --> 00:02:47,301 She's saying something about a baby. 72 00:02:47,335 --> 00:02:48,769 Did we get a baby in here? 73 00:02:48,802 --> 00:02:50,704 There might be a baby on one of those ambulances. 74 00:02:50,738 --> 00:02:52,306 -Let's check. -Eloise, go to dispatch. 75 00:02:52,340 --> 00:02:53,574 Find out if there's an unattended infant 76 00:02:53,607 --> 00:02:54,908 to be brought in. 77 00:02:54,942 --> 00:02:56,677 And get a translator down here, please. 78 00:02:56,710 --> 00:02:58,246 [ Shouting ] Center stage! 79 00:02:58,279 --> 00:03:00,414 It's full. You'll have to put him in sides. 80 00:03:00,448 --> 00:03:01,849 Where is he? Where's the kid? 81 00:03:01,882 --> 00:03:03,551 Sir, I just need you to sit back. 82 00:03:03,584 --> 00:03:05,553 -I just need you to breathe. -Kid? Your kid? 83 00:03:05,586 --> 00:03:07,288 No. The little bastard who did this. 84 00:03:07,321 --> 00:03:09,590 He started the fire. He burned down my building. 85 00:03:09,623 --> 00:03:11,759 [ Coughs ] 86 00:03:11,792 --> 00:03:13,627 Breathe with me. Breathe. 87 00:03:13,661 --> 00:03:15,596 Calm, calm, calm. [ Ragged breathing ] 88 00:03:15,629 --> 00:03:16,964 Her wheezing's getting worse. 89 00:03:16,997 --> 00:03:18,866 Let's start her on a breathing treatment. 90 00:03:18,899 --> 00:03:21,769 And 5 of Haldol IV push, please. Shears. 91 00:03:21,802 --> 00:03:24,838 What do you got? 26-year-old female, unconscious, 92 00:03:24,872 --> 00:03:27,308 blunt trauma to her abdomen with guarding 93 00:03:27,341 --> 00:03:28,876 and bilateral lower extremity fractures. 94 00:03:28,909 --> 00:03:31,545 -Couldn't palpate a pulse. -Okay, confirm with a doppler. 95 00:03:31,579 --> 00:03:33,681 On it! Let's go. 96 00:03:33,714 --> 00:03:36,617 I need to know how my daughter is. 97 00:03:36,650 --> 00:03:38,352 Where's Lola? 98 00:03:38,386 --> 00:03:39,987 My chest. It's hurtin'. 99 00:03:40,020 --> 00:03:41,689 I'm giving you some pain meds right now. 100 00:03:41,722 --> 00:03:44,024 He's gonna need the cath lab. It looks like a heart attack. 101 00:03:44,057 --> 00:03:46,527 Cath lab's not gonna cut it. You see the ST depression 102 00:03:46,560 --> 00:03:48,696 in leads I and II and the elevation in aVR? 103 00:03:48,729 --> 00:03:51,599 Left main infarction. Yep. He's gonna need a bypass. 104 00:03:51,632 --> 00:03:53,667 Call the OR. Get it dialed up right now. 105 00:03:53,701 --> 00:03:55,703 No blood flow to the foot. We need to reduce this. 106 00:03:55,736 --> 00:03:57,371 -Dr. Willis? -On my way. 107 00:03:57,405 --> 00:03:58,672 -[ Man speaks indistinctly ] -Thank you. 108 00:03:58,706 --> 00:04:00,674 Ready? 109 00:04:00,708 --> 00:04:02,610 Ethan: You get the foot? Ready? 110 00:04:02,643 --> 00:04:03,911 -Daddy? -One, two, three... 111 00:04:03,944 --> 00:04:05,879 [ Bone cracks ] -Aah! 112 00:04:05,913 --> 00:04:08,682 -[ Man coughing ] -Dr. Willis, he's arresting. 113 00:04:08,716 --> 00:04:10,584 Go. I'll check the pulse and re-splint. 114 00:04:10,618 --> 00:04:12,953 Starting CPR. 115 00:04:17,491 --> 00:04:19,427 [ Strained voice ] Daddy? 116 00:04:19,460 --> 00:04:21,462 Daddy, I'm right here. 117 00:04:21,495 --> 00:04:22,796 [ Ragged breathing ] 118 00:04:22,830 --> 00:04:24,632 We gotta get him out of here now. 119 00:04:24,665 --> 00:04:26,800 Dad? 120 00:04:26,834 --> 00:04:29,670 Daddy? Daddy, I love you. 121 00:04:29,703 --> 00:04:32,005 Daddy! You need to sit still, okay? 122 00:04:32,039 --> 00:04:34,642 Your ankle's unstable. Lola? Lola, 123 00:04:34,675 --> 00:04:35,976 your father's had a heart attack. 124 00:04:36,009 --> 00:04:37,611 We're taking him to the OR. 125 00:04:37,645 --> 00:04:38,746 We're gonna take care of him. 126 00:04:38,779 --> 00:04:40,714 All right, good blood flow to the foot. 127 00:04:40,748 --> 00:04:43,517 She needs to get an abdominal CT as soon as she's splintered. 128 00:04:43,551 --> 00:04:44,785 Jesse: Meds are in. 129 00:04:44,818 --> 00:04:46,654 Okay. Uh, kerlix and silvadene, please. 130 00:04:46,687 --> 00:04:47,955 Got it. 131 00:04:47,988 --> 00:04:49,823 I got a 4-month-old male here. 132 00:04:49,857 --> 00:04:51,659 [ Baby fussing ] Minor first and second degree burns. 133 00:04:51,692 --> 00:04:52,993 Sats are good. 134 00:04:53,026 --> 00:04:54,728 Look there. They found your baby. 135 00:04:54,762 --> 00:04:56,530 -He's safe. -Sami! 136 00:04:56,564 --> 00:04:58,532 [ Shouts in Arabic ] 137 00:04:58,566 --> 00:05:00,100 I need to get him up to NICU. 138 00:05:00,133 --> 00:05:01,835 Let her see him, please. 139 00:05:01,869 --> 00:05:03,404 She can't hold him because of her burns. 140 00:05:03,437 --> 00:05:04,838 [ Speaking Arabic ] Please. 141 00:05:04,872 --> 00:05:08,642 -Here we go. Quickly. -Okay? Calm down. 142 00:05:08,676 --> 00:05:10,844 Yeah. Huh? 143 00:05:10,878 --> 00:05:12,846 He's okay. We need to treat him now. 144 00:05:12,880 --> 00:05:16,450 Adira! [ Speaking Arabic ] 145 00:05:16,484 --> 00:05:17,785 He'll be right over there. 146 00:05:17,818 --> 00:05:19,887 It's okay. They found him. No, no, no. [ Screaming in Arabic ] 147 00:05:19,920 --> 00:05:22,456 Something is not right. Something is not right. 148 00:05:22,490 --> 00:05:23,791 She said "babies." What? 149 00:05:23,824 --> 00:05:26,394 Babies. Not baby. Babies. 150 00:05:26,427 --> 00:05:28,662 Hold on. Are there two? 151 00:05:28,696 --> 00:05:32,633 -You have two babies? -[ Speaking Arabic ] 152 00:05:32,666 --> 00:05:34,402 There's two of them. They're twins. 153 00:05:43,143 --> 00:05:45,513 [ Siren wails ] -Hey. Hey, hey, hey. 154 00:05:45,546 --> 00:05:46,814 Tell that driver to turn off the damn siren 155 00:05:46,847 --> 00:05:48,115 in the ambulance bay. 156 00:05:48,148 --> 00:05:51,852 Okay, all right. I said they're twins. 157 00:05:51,885 --> 00:05:53,487 You only brought us one. 158 00:05:53,521 --> 00:05:54,955 Man: We brought a couple of vics to St. Joe's. 159 00:05:54,988 --> 00:05:56,790 I called St. Joe's. 160 00:05:56,824 --> 00:05:58,792 Okay, I'll check around. Description? 161 00:05:58,826 --> 00:06:01,562 Approximately 6 months old, a female -- 162 00:06:01,595 --> 00:06:04,698 Do I really have to describe an infant to you? 163 00:06:04,732 --> 00:06:07,435 Tell you what, just bring me whatever babies you find. 164 00:06:07,468 --> 00:06:08,736 How's that? 165 00:06:08,769 --> 00:06:10,871 I need to see my father. 166 00:06:10,904 --> 00:06:12,139 Please? 167 00:06:14,041 --> 00:06:15,909 Can any -- can anyone hear me? 168 00:06:15,943 --> 00:06:17,911 Is there a doctor around? Whoa, whoa, whoa. 169 00:06:17,945 --> 00:06:19,647 -Someone who can -- -Hey, what's going on here? 170 00:06:19,680 --> 00:06:21,782 I'm trying to see my father and nobody is taking me, 171 00:06:21,815 --> 00:06:23,417 no one will tell me anything. 172 00:06:23,451 --> 00:06:25,619 Because you have two broken legs and a lacerated liver. 173 00:06:25,653 --> 00:06:26,954 So you can't go anywhere right now. 174 00:06:26,987 --> 00:06:28,456 Plus, he's still in surgery. 175 00:06:28,489 --> 00:06:29,890 Whoa, hey. Hey. Hey. 176 00:06:29,923 --> 00:06:31,892 Do I have to put you in restraints? 177 00:06:31,925 --> 00:06:35,128 You don't understand. We were fighting and... 178 00:06:35,162 --> 00:06:37,064 I said something. 179 00:06:37,097 --> 00:06:39,099 Fathers and daughters fight all the time. 180 00:06:39,132 --> 00:06:42,936 What I said to him cannot be the last thing he hears. 181 00:06:44,605 --> 00:06:46,807 I have to tell him I'm sorry. 182 00:06:46,840 --> 00:06:48,609 Okay, well, when he is out of surgery, 183 00:06:48,642 --> 00:06:50,478 I'll try and take you up. When? 184 00:06:51,945 --> 00:06:55,148 Hey, Risa. Wanna give me an update on Emanuel? Okay. 185 00:06:55,182 --> 00:06:56,684 No. 186 00:06:56,717 --> 00:06:58,786 You need to do this. 187 00:06:58,819 --> 00:07:00,654 This cannot wait. 188 00:07:00,688 --> 00:07:03,857 You need to tell him I'm sorry. 189 00:07:03,891 --> 00:07:05,859 Please. 190 00:07:08,261 --> 00:07:10,998 That's crazy. Rollie Guthrie won the lottery here. 191 00:07:11,031 --> 00:07:13,867 Not everybody's a candidate for the surgery. 192 00:07:13,901 --> 00:07:17,004 Will: Okay. Sew the graft distal to the blockage. 193 00:07:17,037 --> 00:07:18,506 Off the left anterior descending? 194 00:07:18,539 --> 00:07:19,740 -Yeah. -Got it. 195 00:07:19,773 --> 00:07:21,875 You told him that the window's closing, right? 196 00:07:21,909 --> 00:07:23,877 That he's not gonna be a candidate forever. 197 00:07:23,911 --> 00:07:26,847 -He knows. -That's insane. 198 00:07:26,880 --> 00:07:28,782 -Have you asked him why? -Excuse me? 199 00:07:28,816 --> 00:07:31,785 Of course not. Try asking why he doesn't want the surgery. 200 00:07:31,819 --> 00:07:34,187 Maybe he has a good reason. 201 00:07:34,221 --> 00:07:36,524 [ Monitor beeping steadily ] 202 00:07:36,557 --> 00:07:38,025 Adira... [ Speaking Arabic ] 203 00:07:38,058 --> 00:07:39,993 She says the baby was in the bathroom. 204 00:07:40,027 --> 00:07:41,895 Adira is her name. 205 00:07:41,929 --> 00:07:44,565 She's going really fast. [ Speaks Arabic] 206 00:07:44,598 --> 00:07:47,100 I understand. I understand. 207 00:07:47,134 --> 00:07:49,637 [ Translating into Arabic ] Not your words, but I understand 208 00:07:49,670 --> 00:07:52,205 what you're going through. Okay? 209 00:07:53,941 --> 00:07:56,043 Rollie: Dr. Rorish. 210 00:08:02,082 --> 00:08:04,618 They found the baby. She's just a few minutes out. 211 00:08:04,652 --> 00:08:07,087 What's her status? 212 00:08:07,120 --> 00:08:08,689 [ Speaking inaudibly ] 213 00:08:08,722 --> 00:08:11,191 Alive, but non-responsive. 214 00:08:13,661 --> 00:08:15,495 Do you want me to tell her? 215 00:08:19,567 --> 00:08:21,535 No. Not yet. 216 00:08:27,140 --> 00:08:30,010 [ Murmuring ] Are you still in pain? 217 00:08:30,043 --> 00:08:31,712 We can give you more. 218 00:08:31,745 --> 00:08:33,013 [ Murmuring continues ] 219 00:08:33,046 --> 00:08:34,982 That's him. That's him. 220 00:08:35,015 --> 00:08:36,550 He burned down my building. 221 00:08:36,584 --> 00:08:38,085 Sir, you need to stay in your bed, all right? 222 00:08:38,118 --> 00:08:40,721 Jared. Oh, thank God. 223 00:08:40,754 --> 00:08:42,322 Can you hear me? Jared? 224 00:08:42,355 --> 00:08:45,058 He -- he's my son. Is he okay? Why -- why isn't he responding? 225 00:08:45,092 --> 00:08:46,226 Your son suffered second degree burns 226 00:08:46,259 --> 00:08:47,928 to his chest and abdomen. 227 00:08:47,961 --> 00:08:49,997 Oh. Look who finally shows up. 228 00:08:50,030 --> 00:08:51,765 What? Larry. 229 00:08:51,799 --> 00:08:53,066 Twice a week, I go down to your apartment 230 00:08:53,100 --> 00:08:54,735 and I turn off your smoke alarm 231 00:08:54,768 --> 00:08:56,036 because your kid is burning his dinner. 232 00:08:56,069 --> 00:08:57,605 He likes to cook. 233 00:08:57,638 --> 00:08:59,707 He has to cook 'cause you're never around. 234 00:08:59,740 --> 00:09:03,243 I blame you. Your neglect burned down that building 235 00:09:03,276 --> 00:09:04,778 and everybody inside of it! 236 00:09:04,812 --> 00:09:06,847 I didn't do it, Dad. I swear. 237 00:09:06,880 --> 00:09:08,248 Okay, you just keep that on. I didn't do it. 238 00:09:08,281 --> 00:09:09,950 If my son said he didn't do it, he didn't do it. 239 00:09:09,983 --> 00:09:11,985 Call the cops! Hey, stay away from him. 240 00:09:12,019 --> 00:09:13,987 This is on you! Get your hands off me. 241 00:09:14,021 --> 00:09:16,289 [ Shouting over each other ] 242 00:09:16,323 --> 00:09:18,025 That's enough. Get him out of here. I got him. 243 00:09:18,058 --> 00:09:20,694 Come on. Back to bed. You left him alone! 244 00:09:20,728 --> 00:09:21,962 Those people are dead! 245 00:09:21,995 --> 00:09:25,265 This is on you, Devon! 246 00:09:25,298 --> 00:09:28,001 -Dr. Rorish! -Excuse me. What do you got? 247 00:09:28,035 --> 00:09:30,971 30-year-old female. Minor burns. Severely bradycardic. 248 00:09:31,004 --> 00:09:32,706 Hypotensive from smoke inhalation. 249 00:09:32,740 --> 00:09:34,875 Okay, center stage is full. Let's get her into sides. 250 00:09:34,908 --> 00:09:37,645 Her son, Jack. 251 00:09:39,012 --> 00:09:41,882 Hi, Jack. We're gonna take good care of your mom, okay? 252 00:09:41,915 --> 00:09:44,151 Eloise is gonna take care of you. 253 00:09:44,184 --> 00:09:45,285 All right, let's go. 254 00:09:45,318 --> 00:09:47,287 She's gonna need some high flow O2. 255 00:09:48,822 --> 00:09:50,323 All right, ready? 256 00:09:50,357 --> 00:09:52,359 One, two, three. 257 00:10:00,668 --> 00:10:03,737 Pulse check, Malaya. 258 00:10:03,771 --> 00:10:05,739 -Heart rate's down in the 20s. -The atropine isn't working. 259 00:10:05,773 --> 00:10:07,675 Should we get dopamine before she codes? Mm. 260 00:10:07,708 --> 00:10:10,177 Firemen found this in her bedroom next to her. 261 00:10:11,344 --> 00:10:12,846 Atenolol. 262 00:10:12,880 --> 00:10:14,682 This is a beta blocker overdose. 263 00:10:14,715 --> 00:10:16,149 Dopamine won't work. She needs glucagon. [ Monitor flatlining ] 264 00:10:16,183 --> 00:10:19,186 I'm losing her pulse. Starting CPR. 265 00:10:19,219 --> 00:10:21,354 [ Monitor beeping rapidly ] 266 00:10:21,388 --> 00:10:24,024 Dr. Willis. You wanted to see me? 267 00:10:24,057 --> 00:10:26,059 I'm trying to check on Emanuel Johnson. 268 00:10:26,093 --> 00:10:28,395 Still unconscious, but stable. Why? 269 00:10:28,428 --> 00:10:30,030 I have to give him a message from his daughter. 270 00:10:30,063 --> 00:10:32,165 When he wakes up, page me. 271 00:10:32,199 --> 00:10:34,768 Dr. Willis. It's Lola. 272 00:10:34,802 --> 00:10:36,169 What happened? 273 00:10:36,203 --> 00:10:38,005 She tried to get up to see her father, 274 00:10:38,038 --> 00:10:39,306 and her pressure crashed. 275 00:10:39,339 --> 00:10:40,941 Man: We got a baby over here. 276 00:10:42,943 --> 00:10:44,044 Is that the other twin? 277 00:10:44,077 --> 00:10:45,846 Paramedics just found her. No burns. 278 00:10:45,879 --> 00:10:47,214 She was trapped, found unconscious 279 00:10:47,247 --> 00:10:48,682 in a room full of smoke. 280 00:10:48,716 --> 00:10:51,118 Heart rate's 160, decreased cap refill. 281 00:10:51,151 --> 00:10:53,053 Dr. Dixon, what do you see? 282 00:10:53,086 --> 00:10:54,321 Retinal hemorrhages. 283 00:10:54,354 --> 00:10:56,924 Plus cherry-red skin. 284 00:10:56,957 --> 00:10:58,726 This is carbon monoxide poisoning. 285 00:10:58,759 --> 00:11:01,895 [ Monitor beeping rapidly ] 286 00:11:01,929 --> 00:11:04,197 Mommy? I'm sorry, he ran off. 287 00:11:04,231 --> 00:11:06,266 Let's get him out of here now. [ Beeping continues ] 288 00:11:07,735 --> 00:11:10,237 -Glucagon is in. -Please work. 289 00:11:16,276 --> 00:11:18,145 Looks like she opened that liver laceration. 290 00:11:18,178 --> 00:11:20,914 We gotta stop the bleed. Her abdomen's filled with blood. 291 00:11:20,948 --> 00:11:23,050 Ethan: Center stage. Let's go. 292 00:11:23,083 --> 00:11:25,052 Rollie: We've gotta get her to a hyperbaric chamber. 293 00:11:25,085 --> 00:11:26,486 She needs high-pressure oxygen 294 00:11:26,519 --> 00:11:28,789 to displace carbon monoxide in the hemoglobin. 295 00:11:28,822 --> 00:11:30,290 I'll get an attending. No, no. 296 00:11:30,323 --> 00:11:32,860 There's nobody else but you right now. 297 00:11:32,893 --> 00:11:35,228 Wait, what? I got four ambulances about to hit the ramps. 298 00:11:35,262 --> 00:11:36,463 Rollie, you're gonna have to go in with him. 299 00:11:36,496 --> 00:11:38,165 No, no, no. I can't treat patients. 300 00:11:38,198 --> 00:11:39,967 Look, you'll be outside the chamber. No time to argue. 301 00:11:40,000 --> 00:11:42,502 You gotta get her there now. Go! Let's go. 302 00:11:42,535 --> 00:11:45,205 ** 303 00:11:45,238 --> 00:11:48,308 [ Suction gurgling ] 304 00:11:48,341 --> 00:11:50,878 -Jesse! -Yo! 305 00:11:50,911 --> 00:11:53,113 Good. Get me 2 units running wide open. 306 00:11:53,146 --> 00:11:55,015 You got it. 307 00:11:56,316 --> 00:11:58,085 BP is 64 systolic. 308 00:11:58,118 --> 00:12:00,854 It looks like it's posterior. Probably the IVC. 309 00:12:00,888 --> 00:12:02,355 Let's try a pringle. 310 00:12:02,389 --> 00:12:04,524 Buy us some time till we get her up to the OR. 311 00:12:04,557 --> 00:12:07,127 [ Monitor beeping ] 312 00:12:07,160 --> 00:12:08,929 Bleeding's slowing down. 313 00:12:08,962 --> 00:12:10,931 BP's coming up. She's not out of the woods yet. 314 00:12:10,964 --> 00:12:12,465 All right, let's get her up to the OR. 315 00:12:12,499 --> 00:12:15,068 Her oxygen levels are plummeting. 316 00:12:15,102 --> 00:12:16,269 You have to intubate. 317 00:12:16,303 --> 00:12:18,138 I've never intubated a baby. 318 00:12:18,171 --> 00:12:19,807 Dr. Dixon, listen to me. 319 00:12:19,840 --> 00:12:23,110 You are her only chance. Do you understand? 320 00:12:24,878 --> 00:12:28,115 You can do this. Okay. 321 00:12:28,148 --> 00:12:31,418 A baby's relatively bigger head causes the neck to flex. 322 00:12:31,451 --> 00:12:32,986 Put a towel roll under her shoulders 323 00:12:33,020 --> 00:12:35,255 to improve your view. -Okay. 324 00:12:35,288 --> 00:12:37,190 Good, good. 325 00:12:37,224 --> 00:12:39,793 Okay, keep it steady. Keep it steady. 326 00:12:41,194 --> 00:12:42,495 Tell me what you see. 327 00:12:42,529 --> 00:12:45,098 Uh... 328 00:12:45,132 --> 00:12:48,869 Nothing. I mean, the cords. They're too anterior. 329 00:12:48,902 --> 00:12:50,570 All right. Switch to a Miller blade. 330 00:12:50,603 --> 00:12:52,139 It'll help lift the epiglottis. 331 00:12:54,274 --> 00:12:56,509 Focus, Dr. Dixon. 332 00:12:56,543 --> 00:12:58,445 It's just you and your patient. 333 00:13:00,347 --> 00:13:01,882 [ Clicks ] 334 00:13:03,316 --> 00:13:05,953 I can't see. All right, all right. 335 00:13:05,986 --> 00:13:08,555 Then pull up and see if you can push past the tube. 336 00:13:11,892 --> 00:13:15,228 [ Monitor flatlining ] She's flatlining. I need help. 337 00:13:15,262 --> 00:13:16,930 I can't open the door. 338 00:13:16,964 --> 00:13:19,266 It's pressurized. Elliot, start compressions. 339 00:13:19,299 --> 00:13:21,801 ** 340 00:13:34,147 --> 00:13:37,350 [ Monitor beeping rapidly ] 341 00:13:39,619 --> 00:13:41,221 Check for a pulse. 342 00:13:43,190 --> 00:13:44,824 [ Flatlining ] 343 00:13:50,230 --> 00:13:53,300 Damn it! 344 00:13:53,333 --> 00:13:56,303 [ Voice breaking ] How long has she been asystolic? 345 00:13:56,336 --> 00:13:58,305 32 minutes. 346 00:14:02,109 --> 00:14:03,443 [ Flatlining continues ] 347 00:14:03,476 --> 00:14:06,579 [ Breathing heavily ] 348 00:14:06,613 --> 00:14:07,915 Call it. 349 00:14:07,948 --> 00:14:09,983 [ Monitor beeping rapidly ] 350 00:14:10,017 --> 00:14:11,919 No. 351 00:14:11,952 --> 00:14:13,887 No, I can keep going. 352 00:14:13,921 --> 00:14:16,890 Dr. Dixon, you've done everything you can. 353 00:14:16,924 --> 00:14:22,329 You have to be the one to call it. I can't. 354 00:14:22,362 --> 00:14:26,266 [ Flatlining ] 355 00:14:32,072 --> 00:14:35,242 [ Crying ] 356 00:14:43,150 --> 00:14:46,319 Time of death -- 11:01 p.m. 357 00:14:51,691 --> 00:14:54,194 Please get me out of here. 358 00:14:56,463 --> 00:14:58,665 I can't. 359 00:15:00,633 --> 00:15:04,337 We have to decompress the chamber first. 360 00:15:06,039 --> 00:15:07,240 How long? 361 00:15:08,741 --> 00:15:10,310 About an hour. 362 00:15:12,712 --> 00:15:16,116 [ Voice breaking ] I'm sorry, son. 363 00:15:16,149 --> 00:15:18,285 I wish I could've helped you. 364 00:15:22,089 --> 00:15:25,592 [ Crying ] 365 00:15:25,625 --> 00:15:27,560 Hey. 366 00:15:29,997 --> 00:15:31,698 That the pastor's daughter? 367 00:15:31,731 --> 00:15:33,333 Lola. 368 00:15:33,366 --> 00:15:35,268 Dr. Pinkney and I slowed the bleeding, 369 00:15:35,302 --> 00:15:36,603 but she's got a deep hepatic injury 370 00:15:36,636 --> 00:15:39,539 and a possible IVC fracture. [ Water running ] 371 00:15:39,572 --> 00:15:41,674 Well, as long as the vascular supply is intact, 372 00:15:41,708 --> 00:15:43,576 I'm sure we can save most of the liver. 373 00:15:43,610 --> 00:15:47,114 Yeah, she wanted me to tell her father something important, 374 00:15:47,147 --> 00:15:48,715 but he's not awake. 375 00:15:48,748 --> 00:15:50,283 She's bleeding again. [ Monitor beeping steadily ] 376 00:15:50,317 --> 00:15:52,385 Heading in. 377 00:15:52,419 --> 00:15:55,288 We didn't save Emanuel just to let his daughter die. 378 00:15:55,322 --> 00:15:58,058 Do you mind if I scrub in for this one? 379 00:15:58,091 --> 00:15:59,692 See you in there. 380 00:16:02,429 --> 00:16:05,065 [ Door closes ] 381 00:16:07,067 --> 00:16:09,002 Rima, I am so sorry. 382 00:16:09,036 --> 00:16:10,337 Woman: [ Translating into Arabic ] 383 00:16:10,370 --> 00:16:12,539 The doctors did everything they could, but... 384 00:16:12,572 --> 00:16:15,475 [ Translating continues ] ...they were unable to save your baby. 385 00:16:15,508 --> 00:16:18,011 [ Translating into Arabic ] 386 00:16:21,381 --> 00:16:25,318 [ Speaking Arabic ] 387 00:16:25,352 --> 00:16:27,387 [ Continues in Arabic ] 388 00:16:27,420 --> 00:16:32,292 [ Crying, speaking Arabic ] [ Speaking Arabic ] 389 00:16:32,325 --> 00:16:36,463 [ Sobs, shouting in Arabic ] 390 00:16:36,496 --> 00:16:40,433 [ Continues in Arabic, sobbing ] 391 00:16:43,703 --> 00:16:46,739 How many people died in the fire? 392 00:16:46,773 --> 00:16:50,043 [ Shouting continues ] 393 00:16:50,077 --> 00:16:52,379 You know, Jared, uh... 394 00:16:54,481 --> 00:16:56,283 ...we see some pretty terrible things in here 395 00:16:56,316 --> 00:16:57,550 just about every day. 396 00:16:57,584 --> 00:16:59,519 Terrible accidents. 397 00:16:59,552 --> 00:17:02,522 But... 398 00:17:02,555 --> 00:17:05,525 they are accidents. 399 00:17:09,529 --> 00:17:12,832 I was playing with some firecrackers on the roof. 400 00:17:12,865 --> 00:17:16,336 Just some poppers, a few M-80s. 401 00:17:16,369 --> 00:17:19,272 I was just having some fun. 402 00:17:19,306 --> 00:17:21,674 One of them sparked up 403 00:17:21,708 --> 00:17:25,212 and fell into the drainage pipe. 404 00:17:25,245 --> 00:17:26,613 I was scared to say anything. 405 00:17:26,646 --> 00:17:28,448 I wasn't supposed to be up there. 406 00:17:28,481 --> 00:17:32,619 I didn't think they'd hurt anyone. 407 00:17:35,822 --> 00:17:39,526 All these people are hurt because of me. 408 00:17:44,497 --> 00:17:46,566 They're dead because of me. 409 00:17:59,479 --> 00:18:02,482 ** 410 00:18:04,551 --> 00:18:07,154 How much longer is he in there? 411 00:18:08,488 --> 00:18:10,423 37 minutes. 412 00:18:11,891 --> 00:18:14,527 Dr. Guthrie, the pastor they brought in 413 00:18:14,561 --> 00:18:17,364 is looking for the hospital chaplain. 414 00:18:17,397 --> 00:18:19,699 Go. 415 00:18:19,732 --> 00:18:21,734 I'll stay here with Elliot. 416 00:18:24,904 --> 00:18:26,406 Okay. 417 00:18:28,508 --> 00:18:31,844 ** 418 00:18:39,552 --> 00:18:42,455 Hey, Tracy. How you feelin'? 419 00:18:51,231 --> 00:18:53,400 I sent your son Jack down to the cafeteria 420 00:18:53,433 --> 00:18:55,502 with one of our nurses. 421 00:18:55,535 --> 00:18:58,405 [ Chuckles ] But he wasn't very hungry. 422 00:19:00,440 --> 00:19:04,244 Don't worry. I'll make sure that he eats something. 423 00:19:04,277 --> 00:19:05,912 He's better off without me. 424 00:19:05,945 --> 00:19:08,348 That's not true. 425 00:19:08,381 --> 00:19:10,617 You don't know me. 426 00:19:10,650 --> 00:19:12,452 You're right. 427 00:19:12,485 --> 00:19:14,421 I saw the scars on your wrists. 428 00:19:14,454 --> 00:19:16,789 You've been down this road before. 429 00:19:17,990 --> 00:19:20,760 A couple of times. 430 00:19:22,362 --> 00:19:23,796 You have a son. 431 00:19:23,830 --> 00:19:25,798 You don't think I know that? 432 00:19:25,832 --> 00:19:27,800 We can make some calls, get you some help. 433 00:19:27,834 --> 00:19:31,938 Only help I need is for someone to take that boy. 434 00:19:37,244 --> 00:19:39,212 [ Voice breaking ] He needs a good home. 435 00:19:39,246 --> 00:19:40,780 No, but you are his mother. 436 00:19:40,813 --> 00:19:44,551 Stop talking to me like you know me. You don't. 437 00:19:44,584 --> 00:19:46,953 You don't know what I've been through. 438 00:19:49,256 --> 00:19:50,857 Where is his father? 439 00:19:52,459 --> 00:19:54,894 He...left. 440 00:19:56,429 --> 00:19:58,498 Just took off one day. 441 00:19:59,499 --> 00:20:01,668 I am so sorry. 442 00:20:01,701 --> 00:20:04,637 He left me all alone 443 00:20:04,671 --> 00:20:07,507 when I needed him the most. 444 00:20:08,475 --> 00:20:10,477 Tracy, listen to me. 445 00:20:11,811 --> 00:20:14,547 The pills that you took slowed your breathing 446 00:20:14,581 --> 00:20:17,984 so that you ingested less smoke. 447 00:20:18,017 --> 00:20:20,653 As strange as it is to say, your trying to kill yourself 448 00:20:20,687 --> 00:20:23,456 actually saved your life. 449 00:20:24,591 --> 00:20:28,027 This is a second chance if I have ever seen one. 450 00:20:28,060 --> 00:20:32,565 [ Inhales, exhales sharply ] 451 00:20:34,000 --> 00:20:35,802 Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. 452 00:20:35,835 --> 00:20:37,437 You can't be moving around like that. 453 00:20:37,470 --> 00:20:39,539 We just repaired a lacerated liver. 454 00:20:39,572 --> 00:20:40,973 Did you get the message to my dad? 455 00:20:41,007 --> 00:20:43,676 Not yet. He's still unconscious from the surgery. 456 00:20:43,710 --> 00:20:45,578 But he's recovering. He's doing well. 457 00:20:45,612 --> 00:20:47,046 He should be up soon. 458 00:20:47,079 --> 00:20:48,981 In the meantime, I'm concerned about you. 459 00:20:49,015 --> 00:20:51,050 You have some healing to do of your own. 460 00:20:51,083 --> 00:20:53,686 "Some healing to do." 461 00:20:53,720 --> 00:20:55,988 That's my father's line. 462 00:20:56,022 --> 00:20:59,526 Pops up all the time in his Sunday sermons. 463 00:20:59,559 --> 00:21:02,862 Well, there's a fine line between faith and medicine. 464 00:21:04,831 --> 00:21:07,767 Are you a man of faith, Dr. Willis? 465 00:21:07,800 --> 00:21:10,470 [ Chuckles ] I have faith in medicine. 466 00:21:10,503 --> 00:21:13,906 [ Chuckles ] My dad would have something to say about that, 467 00:21:13,940 --> 00:21:16,609 as he does about everything. 468 00:21:16,643 --> 00:21:18,478 You two are close? 469 00:21:18,511 --> 00:21:21,080 When he's not breathing down my neck. 470 00:21:21,113 --> 00:21:23,082 He can't accept the fact that I'm an adult, 471 00:21:23,115 --> 00:21:25,585 that I can make my own decisions. 472 00:21:25,618 --> 00:21:28,655 Well, sometimes it's hard to let go of the people you love. 473 00:21:28,688 --> 00:21:30,923 I wasn't asking him to let go, 474 00:21:30,957 --> 00:21:33,493 just let me go to New York. 475 00:21:33,526 --> 00:21:35,962 What's in New York? 476 00:21:35,995 --> 00:21:37,497 Broadway. 477 00:21:37,530 --> 00:21:40,600 Oh. Are you a dancer? 478 00:21:40,633 --> 00:21:43,636 Singer. 479 00:21:43,670 --> 00:21:45,638 I've been in the church choir since I can remember, 480 00:21:45,672 --> 00:21:47,840 but when I was 12, 481 00:21:47,874 --> 00:21:49,876 I saw "Les Mis." 482 00:21:49,909 --> 00:21:51,944 He always says, "If you wanna find God, you go to church." 483 00:21:51,978 --> 00:21:55,948 Well, if you wanna sing, you go to New York. 484 00:21:55,982 --> 00:21:57,650 Is that what you fought about? 485 00:21:59,586 --> 00:22:02,822 He said I was turning my back on him, on the church, on God. 486 00:22:02,855 --> 00:22:05,725 I told him I didn't care. It was a bad fight. 487 00:22:05,758 --> 00:22:07,627 I yelled at him, "To hell with God." 488 00:22:07,660 --> 00:22:10,930 The look on his face, I may as well have spit on him. 489 00:22:10,963 --> 00:22:12,732 [ Voice breaking ] He has to know that 490 00:22:12,765 --> 00:22:14,601 I didn't mean any of that. 491 00:22:14,634 --> 00:22:19,606 He needs to know that I love him and I'm sorry. 492 00:22:19,639 --> 00:22:22,609 How 'bout I take you up there and you tell him yourself? 493 00:22:22,642 --> 00:22:24,777 I just have to check on a patient. 494 00:22:24,811 --> 00:22:26,813 I'll be back in 10 minutes. 495 00:22:26,846 --> 00:22:30,817 ** 496 00:22:35,988 --> 00:22:40,593 Rima, I know how difficult this is for you. 497 00:22:40,627 --> 00:22:43,496 [ Translating into Arabic ] 498 00:22:43,530 --> 00:22:45,532 And believe me, there are no words of comfort 499 00:22:45,565 --> 00:22:47,066 anyone can give to you. 500 00:22:47,099 --> 00:22:51,771 [ Translating into Arabic ] 501 00:22:51,804 --> 00:22:54,774 But Sami's still here. 502 00:22:54,807 --> 00:22:57,710 [ Translating into Arabic ] 503 00:23:01,681 --> 00:23:03,683 He's going to be all right. 504 00:23:03,716 --> 00:23:05,151 [ Translating into Arabic ] 505 00:23:05,184 --> 00:23:07,086 You still have him. 506 00:23:07,119 --> 00:23:08,588 [ Translating into Arabic ] 507 00:23:08,621 --> 00:23:09,989 You have each other. 508 00:23:10,022 --> 00:23:12,625 [ Translating into Arabic ] 509 00:23:20,933 --> 00:23:24,437 [ Sobbing, speaking Arabic ] 510 00:23:24,471 --> 00:23:26,673 "No. I don't wanna see him." 511 00:23:26,706 --> 00:23:29,442 No, Rima. Please, he's your son. 512 00:23:29,476 --> 00:23:31,778 [ Translating into Arabic ] [ Speaking Arabic ] 513 00:23:31,811 --> 00:23:34,447 "I don't wanna see him." [ Shouting in Arabic ] 514 00:23:34,481 --> 00:23:35,915 "I don't wanna see him." 515 00:23:35,948 --> 00:23:38,785 [ Shouting in Arabic ] 516 00:23:38,818 --> 00:23:40,553 "I don't want to see him. 517 00:23:40,587 --> 00:23:42,789 My daughter is dead. My daughter is dead." 518 00:23:42,822 --> 00:23:43,923 [ Sobbing ] 519 00:23:43,956 --> 00:23:46,058 Okay, okay. 520 00:23:46,092 --> 00:23:47,494 Shh... 521 00:23:47,527 --> 00:23:48,728 Okay. [ Sobbing continues ] 522 00:23:48,761 --> 00:23:52,765 [ Speaks indistinctly ] 523 00:23:58,538 --> 00:24:02,775 Hi. I'm Rollie Guthrie. I'm the hospital chaplain. 524 00:24:02,809 --> 00:24:04,477 You wanted someone to pray with? 525 00:24:04,511 --> 00:24:06,646 I was just praying for my daughter. 526 00:24:06,679 --> 00:24:08,715 Yes, of course. 527 00:24:08,748 --> 00:24:11,518 [ Monitor beeping steadily ] 528 00:24:11,551 --> 00:24:13,553 [ Sighs ] 529 00:24:13,586 --> 00:24:16,856 I must confess, it's my first day as a chaplain. 530 00:24:16,889 --> 00:24:20,760 I'm not exactly qualified in a traditional sense. 531 00:24:20,793 --> 00:24:22,228 I'm a doctor by trade. 532 00:24:22,261 --> 00:24:25,532 -Do you know your Bible? -I do. 533 00:24:25,565 --> 00:24:27,033 That's a good start. 534 00:24:27,066 --> 00:24:29,035 [ Chuckles ] 535 00:24:30,737 --> 00:24:32,071 What's troubling you? 536 00:24:32,104 --> 00:24:35,207 No, I'm here for you, Father. 537 00:24:35,241 --> 00:24:38,244 It helps me if I can help you. 538 00:24:38,277 --> 00:24:41,681 [ Sighs ] 539 00:24:41,714 --> 00:24:44,751 I watched a child die tonight. 540 00:24:45,885 --> 00:24:48,087 And it made you question God. 541 00:24:48,120 --> 00:24:49,856 No, no. I... 542 00:24:49,889 --> 00:24:51,758 You're human. 543 00:24:51,791 --> 00:24:54,527 And humans want answers. 544 00:24:54,561 --> 00:24:56,729 The answers you need 545 00:24:56,763 --> 00:25:01,200 don't come with photographic evidence. 546 00:25:01,233 --> 00:25:04,971 They require that you believe in something you can't see. 547 00:25:05,004 --> 00:25:07,073 Hmm. 548 00:25:07,106 --> 00:25:11,811 After all, that's why we call it faith, isn't it? 549 00:25:11,844 --> 00:25:14,313 Otherwise, we'd call it proof. 550 00:25:14,346 --> 00:25:15,982 [ Chuckles ] 551 00:25:16,015 --> 00:25:18,718 My daughter and I, we've been at odds 552 00:25:18,751 --> 00:25:21,253 with each other lately, and I was just asking 553 00:25:21,287 --> 00:25:24,256 God for guidance. 554 00:25:24,290 --> 00:25:25,892 And did you get an answer? 555 00:25:27,326 --> 00:25:30,730 He said if raising children were easy, 556 00:25:30,763 --> 00:25:32,632 he might've had another. 557 00:25:32,665 --> 00:25:34,266 [ Laughs ] 558 00:25:34,300 --> 00:25:35,768 You have children, Rollie? 559 00:25:35,802 --> 00:25:38,671 Yes. A son. 560 00:25:38,705 --> 00:25:41,273 Sadly, we're not close. 561 00:25:41,307 --> 00:25:44,143 I've been trying to reach him. 562 00:25:44,176 --> 00:25:46,879 I'm facing a very difficult decision, 563 00:25:46,913 --> 00:25:50,016 and I need to talk to him first. 564 00:25:50,049 --> 00:25:51,884 I'm -- I'm sorry. 565 00:25:56,088 --> 00:25:58,725 I'm scared, Father. 566 00:25:58,758 --> 00:26:00,860 You believe in God, son? 567 00:26:00,893 --> 00:26:02,361 Yes. 568 00:26:02,394 --> 00:26:05,031 Then there's nothing to fear. 569 00:26:05,064 --> 00:26:06,933 ** 570 00:26:06,966 --> 00:26:09,301 [ Coughing ] 571 00:26:09,335 --> 00:26:11,671 Emanuel? Emanuel? 572 00:26:11,704 --> 00:26:13,806 [ Coughing continues ] 573 00:26:13,840 --> 00:26:16,676 [ Monitor beeping rapidly ] Emanuel? 574 00:26:16,709 --> 00:26:21,180 [ Coughing violently ] 575 00:26:23,349 --> 00:26:24,917 Heather: His lungs are filled with fluid. 576 00:26:24,951 --> 00:26:27,754 Loud diastolic murmur. He ruptured his aortic valve. 577 00:26:27,787 --> 00:26:28,955 Pulse is weak. 578 00:26:28,988 --> 00:26:29,989 We need to get him back to the OR right now. 579 00:26:36,262 --> 00:26:40,332 [ Indistinct conversations ] 580 00:26:40,366 --> 00:26:42,368 Hey. 581 00:26:42,401 --> 00:26:44,971 Hey. I'm taking Lola up to see her father. 582 00:26:45,004 --> 00:26:47,406 You didn't hear? 583 00:26:47,439 --> 00:26:49,108 Hear what? 584 00:26:52,679 --> 00:26:54,747 He had a catastrophic aortic valve rupture. 585 00:26:54,781 --> 00:26:57,950 We tried an emergent repair, but, uh, 586 00:26:57,984 --> 00:27:00,219 he was too far into cardiogenic shock. 587 00:27:00,252 --> 00:27:02,755 He died? Yeah. 588 00:27:02,789 --> 00:27:05,024 [ Sighs softly ] 589 00:27:05,057 --> 00:27:06,993 I told her I would bring her up in 10 minutes. 590 00:27:07,026 --> 00:27:08,360 [ Exhales sharply ] 591 00:27:08,394 --> 00:27:10,997 An hour ago. 592 00:27:15,702 --> 00:27:18,037 She didn't wanna see her baby? 593 00:27:18,070 --> 00:27:20,773 Grief isn't logical. 594 00:27:22,041 --> 00:27:24,777 No, it's not. 595 00:27:24,811 --> 00:27:27,079 We're lucky we were able to save the one. 596 00:27:27,113 --> 00:27:29,015 I know. 597 00:27:29,048 --> 00:27:31,984 But she's consumed by the death of the other. 598 00:27:32,018 --> 00:27:35,254 That little boy needs her right now. 599 00:27:35,287 --> 00:27:37,056 And she needs him. 600 00:27:43,763 --> 00:27:45,397 -Whoa, whoa. I wanna see him. 601 00:27:45,431 --> 00:27:46,866 -Shh, shh, shh. -I wanna see him! 602 00:27:46,899 --> 00:27:48,100 Shh, shh. 603 00:27:48,134 --> 00:27:49,401 Did you tell him I was sorry? 604 00:27:49,435 --> 00:27:52,171 I tried. When I did, he was asleep. 605 00:27:52,204 --> 00:27:53,973 Okay? I tried. 606 00:27:55,207 --> 00:27:58,110 Then you should've checked again! 607 00:28:00,412 --> 00:28:02,114 You promised! 608 00:28:02,148 --> 00:28:04,884 You told me you would tell him for me. 609 00:28:04,917 --> 00:28:06,953 Then you said you would take me to go see him, 610 00:28:06,986 --> 00:28:08,788 and you were too busy. 611 00:28:08,821 --> 00:28:10,456 And now he's gone. 612 00:28:10,489 --> 00:28:12,892 You said you'd be right back. 613 00:28:12,925 --> 00:28:15,194 [ Crying ] 614 00:28:15,227 --> 00:28:17,897 Now my father will never know how much I loved him. 615 00:28:17,930 --> 00:28:19,732 That is just not true. 616 00:28:19,766 --> 00:28:21,133 You don't know that. 617 00:28:21,167 --> 00:28:24,470 You don't know anything. 618 00:28:24,503 --> 00:28:26,138 Lola... 619 00:28:26,172 --> 00:28:29,375 [ Inhales sharply, crying ] Please, just leave. 620 00:28:34,213 --> 00:28:36,082 [ Breaths unevenly ] 621 00:28:42,254 --> 00:28:44,356 [ Door opens, closes ] 622 00:28:47,927 --> 00:28:49,228 I feel so bad for him. 623 00:28:49,261 --> 00:28:51,764 His mom tried to commit suicide. 624 00:28:51,798 --> 00:28:54,500 I don't know what to say to him. 625 00:28:54,533 --> 00:28:56,936 Dr. Pineda, believe me, 626 00:28:56,969 --> 00:29:00,039 there is nothing you can say to make it any better for him. 627 00:29:01,874 --> 00:29:04,010 We reached his father in New York. 628 00:29:04,043 --> 00:29:07,113 He's flying back, but won't land for a while. 629 00:29:09,048 --> 00:29:10,449 Maybe you could talk to him. 630 00:29:10,482 --> 00:29:12,484 No. I can't. 631 00:29:12,518 --> 00:29:14,286 Why not? 632 00:29:15,321 --> 00:29:17,156 Because I can't. 633 00:29:22,294 --> 00:29:24,897 [ Phone rings in distance ] 634 00:29:26,298 --> 00:29:29,101 Jared? 635 00:29:29,135 --> 00:29:31,570 Dr. Savetti said you had something you wanted to tell me. 636 00:29:31,603 --> 00:29:34,273 It's okay. You're doing the right thing. 637 00:29:34,306 --> 00:29:37,443 [ Exhales ] I was too afraid to tell you earlier. 638 00:29:37,476 --> 00:29:39,245 Tell me what? 639 00:29:39,278 --> 00:29:42,181 [ Exhales, swallows ] 640 00:29:42,214 --> 00:29:44,884 That I...I did it. 641 00:29:44,917 --> 00:29:47,053 I set the building on fire. 642 00:29:47,086 --> 00:29:49,021 What? 643 00:29:49,055 --> 00:29:51,190 It was stupid. I was playing around with some firecrackers. 644 00:29:51,223 --> 00:29:53,259 -Firecrackers? Inside? -It was on the roof. 645 00:29:53,292 --> 00:29:56,028 No, I-I don't care where it was. 646 00:29:56,062 --> 00:29:58,130 What is wrong with you? 647 00:29:58,164 --> 00:29:59,966 Let's just hold up a minute, all right? No. People died. 648 00:29:59,999 --> 00:30:01,233 Dad, I'm sorry. You're sorry? 649 00:30:01,267 --> 00:30:02,869 Yeah. 650 00:30:04,236 --> 00:30:06,438 I'm gonna have to get a lawyer. 651 00:30:06,472 --> 00:30:08,174 No, you don't. 652 00:30:08,207 --> 00:30:10,910 He didn't do it. 653 00:30:10,943 --> 00:30:13,212 Tell him. 654 00:30:13,245 --> 00:30:14,513 Fire began down in the basement. 655 00:30:14,546 --> 00:30:16,282 What? 656 00:30:16,315 --> 00:30:19,485 It was faulty wiring. 657 00:30:19,518 --> 00:30:22,388 It was my fault, not yours. 658 00:30:28,127 --> 00:30:31,630 I-I am sorry for those things I said. 659 00:30:31,663 --> 00:30:33,499 I was wrong. 660 00:30:35,367 --> 00:30:38,370 [ Breathing heavily ] Okay. 661 00:30:40,339 --> 00:30:43,242 [ Siren wailing in distance ] 662 00:30:51,583 --> 00:30:55,354 [ Radio chatter ] 663 00:30:55,387 --> 00:30:57,924 He's still pretty shell-shocked. 664 00:30:59,458 --> 00:31:02,128 Let me talk to him. 665 00:31:02,161 --> 00:31:04,230 [ Radio chatter continues ] 666 00:31:04,263 --> 00:31:06,198 [ Exhales ] 667 00:31:06,232 --> 00:31:09,201 [ Siren wails in distance ] 668 00:31:11,603 --> 00:31:15,007 [ Sighs ] 669 00:31:15,041 --> 00:31:18,410 I used to -- I used to lay awake at night, 670 00:31:18,444 --> 00:31:22,348 scared of what it might feel like to lose a patient. 671 00:31:24,550 --> 00:31:26,285 [ Voice breaks ] I never thought that I would lose... 672 00:31:26,318 --> 00:31:28,687 I-I know, I know, I know. 673 00:31:28,720 --> 00:31:32,191 Losing a child, especially a baby, is -- 674 00:31:32,224 --> 00:31:34,193 it's about the hardest thing you're gonna experience 675 00:31:34,226 --> 00:31:35,361 in this job. 676 00:31:35,394 --> 00:31:37,563 Then I don't want it anymore. 677 00:31:40,632 --> 00:31:43,235 I quit. 678 00:31:43,269 --> 00:31:44,303 What? 679 00:31:44,336 --> 00:31:46,038 [ Sniffles ] 680 00:31:46,072 --> 00:31:49,375 I'm sorry, I can't -- I can't do this. 681 00:31:49,408 --> 00:31:52,344 Elliot, listen to me. 682 00:31:52,378 --> 00:31:55,347 Do you know why you're good at it? 683 00:31:55,381 --> 00:31:58,017 Because they're not your patients. 684 00:31:58,050 --> 00:32:00,686 They're you. 685 00:32:00,719 --> 00:32:04,056 Do you understand what I mean? No. 686 00:32:04,090 --> 00:32:06,325 Sympathy... 687 00:32:06,358 --> 00:32:10,162 is something that almost everybody has. 688 00:32:10,196 --> 00:32:14,266 But empathy, that gift that allows you to feel 689 00:32:14,300 --> 00:32:16,402 what other people are feeling, 690 00:32:16,435 --> 00:32:19,005 you got that locked down. 691 00:32:19,038 --> 00:32:22,408 So you don't leave. 692 00:32:22,441 --> 00:32:25,744 Because this is not your job, son. 693 00:32:25,777 --> 00:32:29,415 It's your calling. 694 00:32:29,448 --> 00:32:31,583 If you quit, 695 00:32:31,617 --> 00:32:35,087 you'll regret it for the rest of your life. 696 00:32:35,121 --> 00:32:37,456 Believe me, son. I know. 697 00:32:42,228 --> 00:32:45,031 Now pick your head up, Dr. Dixon. 698 00:32:49,468 --> 00:32:51,437 Yeah. [ Chuckles ] 699 00:32:51,470 --> 00:32:54,006 Hallelujah. 700 00:32:54,040 --> 00:32:56,042 [ Chuckles ] 701 00:32:57,376 --> 00:33:00,012 Okay, Tracy, so it looks like -- 702 00:33:00,046 --> 00:33:03,382 No, no, no, no. Dr. Rorish! 703 00:33:03,415 --> 00:33:05,217 Dr. Rorish! 704 00:33:06,618 --> 00:33:08,420 Oh, my God. 705 00:33:08,454 --> 00:33:11,390 Okay, center stage, please. 706 00:33:11,423 --> 00:33:13,392 [ Indistinct conversations ] 707 00:33:13,425 --> 00:33:16,595 Out of the way, out of the way. 708 00:33:18,464 --> 00:33:20,266 Jesse: Look out. Coming through, people. 709 00:33:20,299 --> 00:33:22,468 Watch your backs. Watch out. 710 00:33:22,501 --> 00:33:24,370 Need a suture tray, please, and a 4-O. 711 00:33:24,403 --> 00:33:27,139 Standing by for gauze. 712 00:33:27,173 --> 00:33:28,740 Jesse: Spread it out. Spread it out. 713 00:33:28,774 --> 00:33:31,277 -How much blood has she lost? -At least three liters. 714 00:33:31,310 --> 00:33:34,513 -I'm gonna start a central line. -Airway first. Intubate her. 715 00:33:34,546 --> 00:33:37,349 There's too much blood. I can't access the artery. 716 00:33:37,383 --> 00:33:40,386 What have we got? Jesse: Patient cut her wrist. Severe blood loss. 717 00:33:40,419 --> 00:33:42,254 Angus: It's probably residual swelling from the fire. 718 00:33:42,288 --> 00:33:43,522 Put in the fiber optic. 719 00:33:43,555 --> 00:33:45,124 Leanne: We're gonna need to slow this bleeding. 720 00:33:45,157 --> 00:33:46,392 Let's push hard. Got it? 721 00:33:46,425 --> 00:33:48,260 Dr. Guthrie. 722 00:33:48,294 --> 00:33:49,461 I need your hands. 723 00:33:49,495 --> 00:33:51,097 Get in here, Rollie. Come on. 724 00:33:51,130 --> 00:33:53,499 I-I can't cross the orange line. 725 00:33:53,532 --> 00:33:54,766 Rollie, open your eyes. 726 00:33:54,800 --> 00:33:56,568 What? What do you mean? 727 00:33:56,602 --> 00:33:58,604 Rollie, open your eyes. 728 00:33:58,637 --> 00:34:00,106 Jesse: Rollie, open your eyes. Come on. 729 00:34:00,139 --> 00:34:02,274 Open your eyes. Open your eyes. 730 00:34:02,308 --> 00:34:04,376 That's right, Rollie. 731 00:34:04,410 --> 00:34:06,312 [ Monitor beeping steadily ] Come on back to us now. 732 00:34:06,345 --> 00:34:09,381 Good. Good. Yes. Open your eyes. 733 00:34:09,415 --> 00:34:10,416 ** 734 00:34:18,424 --> 00:34:20,426 Rollie, you're in the OR. [ Coldplay's "Fix You" playing ] 735 00:34:20,459 --> 00:34:21,793 We've got you in a twilight sleep. 736 00:34:21,827 --> 00:34:24,330 That's why you're a little disoriented. 737 00:34:24,363 --> 00:34:27,266 I'm not ready for the surgery yet. 738 00:34:27,299 --> 00:34:29,401 That's not what you said a week ago. 739 00:34:29,435 --> 00:34:31,637 You're in here about four hours. You're doing great. 740 00:34:31,670 --> 00:34:35,574 Rollie, we're gonna continue with the questions now. 741 00:34:35,607 --> 00:34:36,808 What questions? 742 00:34:36,842 --> 00:34:39,745 We asked you to fill out a few pages of personal questions 743 00:34:39,778 --> 00:34:43,749 so I don't venture in areas of your brain I shouldn't. 744 00:34:43,782 --> 00:34:45,384 * When you feel so tired 745 00:34:45,417 --> 00:34:47,453 I love this song. 746 00:34:47,486 --> 00:34:49,488 Go ahead with the next question. Okay. 747 00:34:49,521 --> 00:34:52,724 * Stuck in reverse 748 00:34:52,758 --> 00:34:55,327 Rollie, where did you go to med school? 749 00:34:55,361 --> 00:34:58,530 Um, NYU. 750 00:34:58,564 --> 00:35:00,766 Very good. 751 00:35:00,799 --> 00:35:02,534 Leanne: Okay. 752 00:35:02,568 --> 00:35:05,437 Where'd you do your residency? 753 00:35:05,471 --> 00:35:08,140 * In love to let it go 754 00:35:08,174 --> 00:35:09,575 Angels. 755 00:35:09,608 --> 00:35:11,577 How many children do you have? 756 00:35:11,610 --> 00:35:13,445 * But if you never try 757 00:35:13,479 --> 00:35:16,415 I have a son. 758 00:35:16,448 --> 00:35:18,150 Cole. 759 00:35:18,184 --> 00:35:21,387 * Just what you're worth 760 00:35:21,420 --> 00:35:23,522 Leanne: Rollie? 761 00:35:23,555 --> 00:35:25,557 Yeah? 762 00:35:25,591 --> 00:35:27,726 What was your father's name? 763 00:35:27,759 --> 00:35:30,562 * The lights will guide... Man: Humans want answers. 764 00:35:30,596 --> 00:35:32,531 [ Bell tolling ] But the kind of answers you need 765 00:35:32,564 --> 00:35:35,801 don't come with photographic evidence. 766 00:35:35,834 --> 00:35:38,404 They require that you believe in something 767 00:35:38,437 --> 00:35:39,538 that you can't see. 768 00:35:39,571 --> 00:35:42,508 Emanuel. 769 00:35:42,541 --> 00:35:44,410 He was a pastor. [ Monitor beeping rapidly ] 770 00:35:44,443 --> 00:35:46,945 Give me the nitroglycerin, IV push. 50 MCGs. 771 00:35:46,978 --> 00:35:50,482 [ Speaks indistinctly ] 772 00:35:50,516 --> 00:35:53,352 That's why we call it faith. 773 00:35:53,385 --> 00:35:56,355 Otherwise, we'd call it proof. 774 00:35:56,388 --> 00:35:57,623 ** 775 00:35:57,656 --> 00:35:59,358 So what do you think about it? 776 00:35:59,391 --> 00:36:00,426 I guess it's okay. 777 00:36:00,459 --> 00:36:03,429 It's okay? It's just okay? 778 00:36:03,462 --> 00:36:04,763 I'm scared, Father. 779 00:36:04,796 --> 00:36:07,833 You believe in God, son? Yes. 780 00:36:07,866 --> 00:36:09,468 Then there's nothing to fear. 781 00:36:09,501 --> 00:36:10,802 [ Coughing ] 782 00:36:10,836 --> 00:36:12,571 Emanuel? 783 00:36:12,604 --> 00:36:14,440 Daddy? [ Coughing continues ] 784 00:36:14,473 --> 00:36:18,510 ** 785 00:36:20,612 --> 00:36:22,681 [ Monitor continues beeping rapidly ] 786 00:36:22,714 --> 00:36:25,551 Now you pick up your head, Dr. Dixon. 787 00:36:25,584 --> 00:36:26,685 Why do you keep calling me that? 788 00:36:26,718 --> 00:36:29,388 My name is Rollie. Rollie Guthrie. 789 00:36:29,421 --> 00:36:32,224 ** 790 00:36:41,867 --> 00:36:43,602 ** 791 00:36:43,635 --> 00:36:46,238 * Tears stream 792 00:36:46,272 --> 00:36:49,608 * Down on your face 793 00:36:49,641 --> 00:36:51,610 * When you lose something 794 00:36:51,643 --> 00:36:57,283 * You cannot replace 795 00:36:57,316 --> 00:37:00,419 * Tears stream 796 00:37:00,452 --> 00:37:02,621 They said "babies." Not baby. Babies. 797 00:37:02,654 --> 00:37:04,390 There's two of them. They're twins. 798 00:37:04,423 --> 00:37:07,659 This is carbon monoxide poisoning. 799 00:37:07,693 --> 00:37:11,297 Jesse: We're lucky we were able to save the one. 800 00:37:11,330 --> 00:37:13,999 But she's consumed by the death of the other. 801 00:37:14,032 --> 00:37:17,669 He left me all alone when I needed him the most. 802 00:37:17,703 --> 00:37:18,504 Maybe you could talk to him. 803 00:37:18,537 --> 00:37:20,672 I can't. Why not? 804 00:37:20,706 --> 00:37:23,509 Because I'm on a plane right now. I wasn't here. 805 00:37:23,542 --> 00:37:25,844 You left him alone. And now people are dead! 806 00:37:25,877 --> 00:37:27,579 This is on you, Rollie. 807 00:37:27,613 --> 00:37:29,481 No... * Down on your face 808 00:37:29,515 --> 00:37:34,553 * And I... 809 00:37:34,586 --> 00:37:38,657 ** 810 00:37:38,690 --> 00:37:41,393 * Tears stream * Tears stream 811 00:37:41,427 --> 00:37:44,330 * Down on your face * Down on your face 812 00:37:44,363 --> 00:37:46,565 * When you lose something 813 00:37:46,598 --> 00:37:51,670 * You cannot replace 814 00:37:51,703 --> 00:37:54,573 * Tears stream * Tears streaming, yeah 815 00:37:54,606 --> 00:37:57,008 * Down on your face 816 00:37:57,042 --> 00:37:58,910 * And I... 817 00:37:58,944 --> 00:38:05,651 * And I... 818 00:38:05,684 --> 00:38:09,588 * Lights will guide 819 00:38:09,621 --> 00:38:12,624 * You home 820 00:38:12,658 --> 00:38:19,465 * And ignite your bones 821 00:38:19,498 --> 00:38:23,435 * And I will try 822 00:38:23,469 --> 00:38:25,704 * To fix you 823 00:38:28,039 --> 00:38:30,742 [ Monitor beeping steadily ] 824 00:38:33,579 --> 00:38:35,113 Welcome back. 825 00:38:35,146 --> 00:38:37,949 Rollie, you did great. 826 00:38:39,985 --> 00:38:41,587 [ Gasps softly ] 827 00:38:41,620 --> 00:38:43,355 So none of it was real? 828 00:38:46,625 --> 00:38:48,460 I'm not the chaplain? 829 00:38:48,494 --> 00:38:49,995 Chaplain? 830 00:38:50,028 --> 00:38:52,398 We don't have a chaplain. [ Chuckling ] 831 00:38:52,431 --> 00:38:55,634 You're a doctor, Rollie. You always will be. 832 00:38:55,667 --> 00:38:57,803 [ Breathes sharply ] 833 00:38:57,836 --> 00:39:01,106 Dr. Guthrie? Why are you crying? 834 00:39:01,139 --> 00:39:04,943 Cole. He never came. 835 00:39:04,976 --> 00:39:07,713 Dad? 836 00:39:07,746 --> 00:39:09,981 Dad, I'm right here. 837 00:39:14,586 --> 00:39:15,754 Cole. 838 00:39:15,787 --> 00:39:17,589 Yeah, I came last night. Remember? 839 00:39:18,790 --> 00:39:21,026 There's something I need to tell you, son. 840 00:39:21,059 --> 00:39:23,061 Guys, come on. 841 00:39:23,094 --> 00:39:25,063 Look, rest, Dad. We got plenty of time. 842 00:39:25,096 --> 00:39:27,766 No, no, no. I need to tell you now. 843 00:39:33,972 --> 00:39:36,708 There's something you don't know, son. 844 00:39:38,510 --> 00:39:40,779 You had a twin, Cole. 845 00:39:40,812 --> 00:39:42,748 A sister. Her name was Lola. 846 00:39:42,781 --> 00:39:44,583 [ Monitor beeping rapidly ] I... 847 00:39:44,616 --> 00:39:45,984 Okay, Dad, I need you to settle down. 848 00:39:46,017 --> 00:39:47,819 No. No, no, no. Listen, listen, listen. 849 00:39:47,853 --> 00:39:51,056 I have to tell you. 850 00:39:51,089 --> 00:39:55,927 She died when you were just 1 year old. We never told you. 851 00:39:55,961 --> 00:39:58,464 It was a terrible tragedy, Cole. 852 00:39:59,865 --> 00:40:03,835 I-I had come home late from the hospital. 853 00:40:03,869 --> 00:40:07,473 And I went in to check on both of you. 854 00:40:07,506 --> 00:40:10,976 But neither one of you were breathing. 855 00:40:11,009 --> 00:40:14,179 It was a carbon monoxide leak. 856 00:40:14,212 --> 00:40:17,115 Dad, now's not the time -- No, no, no. Listen to me. 857 00:40:17,148 --> 00:40:18,717 ** 858 00:40:18,750 --> 00:40:20,819 I got the two of you and your mother outside. 859 00:40:20,852 --> 00:40:23,989 I started CPR on you first. 860 00:40:24,022 --> 00:40:26,825 And then you finally woke up. 861 00:40:26,858 --> 00:40:30,562 But when I reached for Lola... 862 00:40:32,898 --> 00:40:35,166 ...she -- she was ice cold. 863 00:40:35,200 --> 00:40:38,570 [ Crying ] Cole, I tried to save her. 864 00:40:38,604 --> 00:40:40,472 I did. I did. 865 00:40:40,506 --> 00:40:42,207 But I was too late. [ Monitor beeping rapidly ] 866 00:40:42,240 --> 00:40:44,810 No, no, Cole. Listen, listen to me. 867 00:40:44,843 --> 00:40:48,680 Your mother loved you, son. She loved you. 868 00:40:48,714 --> 00:40:53,118 But the loss of your sister was just too much for her to handle. 869 00:40:53,151 --> 00:40:54,586 She... 870 00:40:54,620 --> 00:40:56,655 [ Beeping continues ] 871 00:40:56,688 --> 00:40:58,657 [ Gasps softly ] 872 00:40:58,690 --> 00:41:00,859 No. 873 00:41:00,892 --> 00:41:02,828 No. 874 00:41:02,861 --> 00:41:05,897 No, that wasn't the whole truth. 875 00:41:05,931 --> 00:41:07,966 We're lucky we were able to save one. 876 00:41:07,999 --> 00:41:10,068 [ Heart beating rapidly ] 877 00:41:10,101 --> 00:41:12,638 Rollie: I was consumed by the death of the other. 878 00:41:12,671 --> 00:41:15,941 It -- it was me, Cole. 879 00:41:17,976 --> 00:41:21,279 I was the one who couldn't handle the loss. 880 00:41:21,312 --> 00:41:23,749 [ Crying ] 881 00:41:23,782 --> 00:41:26,985 Your mother was struggling, and I knew it. 882 00:41:27,018 --> 00:41:28,854 But I couldn't help her. 883 00:41:28,887 --> 00:41:31,690 [ Crying ] 884 00:41:31,723 --> 00:41:34,593 Because I couldn't help myself. 885 00:41:34,626 --> 00:41:36,862 [ Sobbing ] 886 00:41:36,895 --> 00:41:40,932 I'm so sorry, son. I'm so sorry. 887 00:41:40,966 --> 00:41:42,934 I love you more than anything, 888 00:41:42,968 --> 00:41:46,638 but...I failed you. 889 00:41:46,672 --> 00:41:48,073 I failed you. 890 00:41:48,106 --> 00:41:51,309 Oh, no. You didn't fail me, Dad. 891 00:41:51,342 --> 00:41:52,944 You didn't fail me. 892 00:41:55,714 --> 00:41:57,716 It's okay. 893 00:41:57,749 --> 00:42:01,787 ** 894 00:42:01,820 --> 00:42:03,054 I love you, too. 895 00:42:05,023 --> 00:42:07,192 And I'm here now. 896 00:42:07,225 --> 00:42:09,260 I love you, son. 897 00:42:09,294 --> 00:42:10,996 I love you, too. 898 00:42:13,932 --> 00:42:14,966 [ Sobbing ]